story told on 12:18 am �

i'm going to pahang in a few hours time... i'm leaving klang at about 7 am... yeah... i'm feeling emo and like shit right now... it's hard for me to leave behind so many things i have grown fond of... my home, my family, my friends, the plain good ol' home cooked food and most of all the simplicity of life itself... now, with so much to shoulder, i find myself not being able to face them with courage... i feel so... wussy... why i'm feeling like this is something i don't really know... i guess it's part of my personality... *sighs* it's not the same when i left for NS... i kept telling myself it's not that different from that time during NS... but another part of me says otherwise and that things are going to be rough... that's life i guess... just another rite of passage most students must go through... i'm praying hard that i will be able to find the strength inside of me to face the challenges up ahead... fingers crossed, i hope i get to find Juliet there... ok la... i know studies first... i will focus on my studies... i'm just hoping... that's all... if fate has it then good... if not, then oh well... before i end my post, i would like to say goodbye to all my friends and thanks for the moral support... i'm going to miss all of you, family and friends alike... time for me to leave the path of teenagers and tread the path of adults... with that said... goodbye all... i'll be back in due time... in the meantime, please do take care of yourself/selves...

p.s.: to all my friends who are going to leave/have left, i wish you all the best and please do take care of yourself... we'll meet once we have the time... until then... sayonara minna...

story told on 1:49 am �

i managed to watch Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen today... so what do i think of it...? ok... here's my take on it... if you liked/loved the first Transformers movie, you're going to love this TEN times more... that is how good this move is... sure, it ain't the perfect movie, but it was still one heck of a ride... my rating: 11/10... go watch it and watch it NOW... and yes, if you're reading this Ms. Sot-Because-of-Swine-Flu i'm asking you to go watch it... like now... no waiting... if not, i'll smack you with yellow pages... =P

story told on 10:49 pm �

ah... sorry for not updating my blog for over 2 months... nothing new was happening since the last 2 months until now... i spent most of my time slacking and lazing around... but things has taken a very drastic turn... as most of you are informed, i'm going off to Pahang to further my studies... i was offered a place in University Malaysia Pahang to do a chemical engineering course... the course is 4 years long... so yeah... i'll be gone for 4 years... but i'll be back whenever there are holidays... it seems very sudden to me... i still find it very hard to accept the fact that i'm leaving in such a short time... the university application results were out merely a week ago and i already have to pack and leave this sunday... i guess i'm unable to accept such sudden changes so quickly... maybe i ain't as strong as many people precieve me to be... i guess i'm still immature and afraid of changes... anyhow, i still have to go whether i like it or not... my future depends on it... i hope i get to be strong and face all upcoming challenges headstrong... so i'd like to thank everyone who have given me their blessings, support and encouragement... friends and family, i will miss you all very much... i'll miss my home very much... i'll miss the simplicity of life at home and the company i get... but more importantly, i have to focus and concentrate on my studies and achieve the very best i can... no sacrifice, no victory... i'm still contactable on my handphone... but i won't be online for the first month because i won't be bringing my laptop with me... anyways, i hope i have said all my goodbyes... i know i will miss you all... so very much...

story told on 11:16 pm �

i'm scared and afraid... i have flaws... i can no longer hide my fears... yes, i admit i'm scared... i'm not strong, i'm losing faith, i'm groing tired, i'm can't see the light behind the darkness, i can't see the truth behind truth itself... why...? because i'm nothing but human... i'm imperfect... that what makes me, me...