Wednesday, April 01, 2009
update update update... i know my blog's been collecting cyber dust and is in much needed cleaning or update... truth be told, i'm NOT busy... i do have abundance of time to update my cyber dust covered blog... just that, i didn't have the 'feel' or mood to put it simply to update it... it's about 3 weeks since my results were out... i'm not that sad and depressed over it anymore... i know i pale in comparison with other people including my own kin... i know i disappointed many people inculding myself, but i now must look forward to the future... i did not have much encouraging support... the normal "you did okay", "okay what..." support were aplenty and i thank those who gave me those words... there are those of course who didn't even bothered... no names shall be mentioned... i don't really care about those people now... those who stood behind me and gave me the support i needed, i thank you very much...
university application has already been submitted... i can only hope and pray that i get into a good university and of course into the course that i want which is chemical engineering... i don't know much about chemical engineering, but i do hope i can learn to love it and do well... a good university is very relative... what is good to me may not be good to others... but looking at the current state of our local universities, one cannot put their hopes in the clouds... the standards are dropping... i know most people get what i'm trying to say... anyways, i hope for the best... not being at the top does not mean i'm at the bottom...
lack of communication is killng me... urgh... it's crazy i tell you... i'm soo dying to get out and have some fun... i'm stuck at home for more than 3 months now... no, i'm not interested in a job... the prospect of waking up every morning and going to a place where it's boring and monotonous is simply not appealing to me... not to mention the language barrier i'm facing... so what if i'm a banana... bite me... i don't give shyt of what you think of me... damn, i can't remember the feeling of sitting in the cinema and enjoying a movie... i miss the feeling of the good times with my friends from all over... those from klang and those from other cities... i miss the feeling of chatting on MSN till 2 or 3 in the morning... everybody's so busy with their lives nowadays... studies, cleaning their rooms, cooking and the likes... the hardest is to catch up with those studying in a foreign country... heck, it's even hard to catch up with those studying locally... damn... i miss the good ol' days... okay... i know i sound desperate for company... but wouldn't you if you were in my shoes...? if i had to blame something i would blame myself... i do not have the most friendly personality... i'm not the most outspoken person in the room... i'm shy around people... especialy girls... even more if they are pretty... i'm not the center of attraction and obviously not the life of a party... yes, to sum it all up... i'm what you call a BORING person...
boring person aside, i just begin to realize how much i hate certain people... no, don't get me wrong... i don't hate my friends... i hate how some people are just so blatantly oblivious to the most simple things like being polite... typical chinese mentality... and i'm refering to the really really chinese type of people... those who can't even string simple english sentences together and the only words they know is vulgarities in hokkien... yes, i am trashing these people on my blog... what i hate most about them is the fact they are NOT grateful and very arrogant... they proudly say "i AM better than you" with no shame whatsoever... so what if you are better than others... does that give you the right to be arrogant and belittle others...? and when overthrown, all they can say is "fuck you", or "you got lucky"... the ugly malaysian indeed... i'm so ashamed to be associated with them... my words for them: "speak up asshole; your voice got all muffled from your head being so far up your ass..." i hope you jerks understand one very simple thing... i classify you as the only people who are smart enough to possess an IQ equivalent to a potato chip...
that said and done... i'll try to update as often as possible which i know won't be very often... yes, yes... i know... i'm a lazy asshole... whatever... i'm outta 'ere...
p.s: i'm still loking for juliet... hahahahahahahaha... *laugh echoes*
