Tuesday, January 20, 2009
ahhh... sex legend... people like charlie sheen (actor) and jack nicholson (also an actor) has slept with many women... and i mean a lot... not tens, not hundreds but THOUSANDS...!! amazing stuff... but i too hav a sex legend title... serious... you don't believe me...? i am a sex legend... maybe not famous though... but i have the title... serious... still don't believe me...? here:
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for only RM69.99 (i think...), you can be a sex legend too...!!
p.s: i didn't actually buy that... saw it in a shop in 1 utama and took a picture... =)
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
i was blog-hopping quite frequently in the past few days... and then i began to wonder... what was my purpose i started blogging... was it the trend at that moment...? or was it something else...? something deeper...? when i browse through my friends' blogs, i read about what goes on in their lives... the good, the bad and life's up's and down's in general... i know most people enjoy telling others how much fun life can be and their relations, but it's these events that lead me to question my life... reading popular blogs like Kenny Sia's one really makes me feel like i miss much in life... travelling, eating good food, etc... when i look at my life, there is much to be desired... but then again, i'm still young... which leaves me still burdened by questions... anyhow, there is much to be done, many decisions to be made... things i should and should not do... i just hope when the time comes, correct decisions are made... until then, i need to do some answering to some really tough questions...
p.s.: soul-searching will be the only thing Google can never find...
2009... so far, not much has happened... well, it's been about 2 weeks... i'm kinda lost right... not literally... but more of not knowing my next step... many of my friends have already started working... i'm still not sure whether i want to work... it's a 50-50 thing... okay okay... i admit i'm kinda lazy... but i sit at home with nothing to do... so working might be a good option... MUET results will be out this coming thursday... frankly, i don't think i can get the same or better result than the previous test i took... the new format is much more difficult than the previous format...
anyways, that aside, chinese new year is coming... hmm... i don't feel excited at all... not a hint of it... as strange as it may sound, i don't feel i can get into the cny mood... just not this year... something is just not right for me this year... economy's bad, war happening again... seems like a very bad welcoming for 2009... changes perhaps, is what i fear most... honestly speaking, i rather be in school once again... i kinda miss school life... i envy those who are still schooling... growing older kinda sucks right now... its like responsibilities grow proportionately with age... i feel i'm about to take on more responsibilities in the coming months... i so wish i was in form 4 again... those were the best times of my life... lesser responsibilities back then... life wasn't exactly a bed of roses but it was close to that... but now, i feel like i'm about to lie on a bed of cactus, with sharpened steel nails as their spines... i do not doubt my ability to handle my future responsibilities, its how well i handle them that i doubt... how much pressure and stress i can sustain before i break... will i be like glass; brittle and very breakable, or will i be like a steel spring; able to hold more than expected...? that is the question that remains unanswered... for now at least... all in all, i'm hoping for the best... and i really miss school...!!
Sunday, January 04, 2009
it's 4 days past 2009... i know i should at least post a happy new post but i somehow just didn't want to... i have no idea why... maybe it's the fact i'm not so looking forward to this year... there are many changes coming this year... maybe i'm just not ready to face them... not just yet... i couldn't sleep last night... many things were running through my mind... what happened in the past, what i should do in the present and what awaits me in the future... as i reflect back on the past year, i realise there were many good, bad and the downright ugly things that happened to me, my family, my friends and the people around me; decisions and actions that i made that were good and there are those i made without think and evaluating maturely... i feel that what i have done in the past has made me grow up a little more; making me realise how some decisions can make such a difference no matter how big or small that decision is... i believe most things happen for a reason despite it being bad... maybe it's a sign for us to be careful, think maturely, be more attentive to our surroundings...
as i look back even more, i feel blessed to have met the people i have met... each one of you made an impact in my life; whether it being good or otherwise... but time has brought me to a point where i have to take a different route... the route to my future... honestly speaking, i would rather have it if some things never change... well, of course most people will tell me to "look on the bright side"... i would if only the bright side was bright enough for me to see... i never considered myself to be a person to have many friends... knowing someone doesn't make him/her your friend... a friend is a person whom you can connect with, feel comfortable around, being able to be your true self without having to fake a single feeling, being able to talk about just anything without feeling any discomfort... real friends make your true self reveal itself... whether you agree on this matter is solely up to you...
there are of course the normal questions people ask when they meet up with me after not meeting up for a long time... questions such as "what is your future study plan?", "what are u doing currently?" and of course the dreaded question "got girlfriend already?" why do i say dreaded question...? sure... it's nice being single... but it's equally nice to be attached also... that lovey-dovey feeling, holding hands, getting and showing PDA... those of you who are/has been in a relationship should get what i'm trying to say... i know i may sound like a desperate person but in fact i'm not... if i was, i would be dating random girls... but do i wish to be attached...? yes... i don't see why not... maybe the timing might not be perfect but nothing is perfect anyways... no, this is not advert for me seeking companionship... i'm not THAT desperate...
so, what's the main purpose of this post...? i just need to let out how i feel... that's all... i'm not the type of guy who can just tell random people how i feel just to get simpathy and more aquintances... i don't have, what i call it, the balls to carry out such a task... call me whatever names you want... i don't care... i'm just being who i am... i may not be every girl's dream guy, nor am i the perfect friend... i'm only human with abundance of flaws...
anyways, happy 2009 to everyone i know out there, near or far, high or low... may the new year be a blessed one for you... i hope the same for me too...
