my side of the story... wanna hear it?
Friday, April 11, 2008
story told on 9:04 pm �
okay... today i'm typing my post in red... it's not the regular white colour i always use... why you ask...? simply because... i'm super pissed off with what is going on with the higher authorities... as usual, no names will be mentioned... my policy is to protect the anonymity of the people mentioned here... but this time... i won't mention names because their names are not WORTH mentioning... these people DO NOT deserve to be mentioned in my blog...

having said that, why am i super pissed off... i absolutely hate it when basic human rights are denied... BASIC... B-A-S-I-C HUMAN RIGHTS... what rights am i talking about...? the freedom to choose... something all of us are allowed to do... but no... some people have to force us to do what they want us to do... which is a whole load of BULLCRAP... no wait... let me rephrase that... it's not bullcrap... it's F*CKING BULLCRAP... yea that's right... already, i have given my reason for not wanting join/participate/attend/contribute... but no... denying is one thing... telling indirectly that my reason is not accepted because you want me to follow your orders is the last straw... ironically, i don't hate the management... i hate the higher authorities... no doubt, the higher authorities are nice people in person... but persuading (read: forcing) us against or basic rights...? rights to choose...? it's just wrong...

am i angry for what they are doing...? no and yes... no, because they are doing it for me... but yes because of denying my choice... currently, i still have to make my final decision... what will it be, i do not know... will it be in my favor or not will rest on two days of thinking... proper thinking... just that something tells me i might regret my decision either way... anyhow, a decision has to be made... lets all hope for the best...

in all seriousness, i feel that it's about time something has to be done... i have worked to hard and too long for these people to get treated like this... and i'm not the only one feeling this way... signing up for this was one of my biggest mistakes... my initial picture of these people were good ones, but now it has changed to the direct opposite... letting go of what i have now is indeed running through my mind countless times... i really want to but i am afraid of the consequences of my actions... i'm not scared to take full responsibility but i'm afraid of what others might suffer due to my decision... this is indeed f*cked up... i'm not essentially worried for my own but for the people around me...

all in all, i have accomplished what i came to do... letting go of steam and telling how 'nice' these people are treating me... what i have to say to them is; practice safe sex, give yourself a hand...

p.s: these people happen to be alive solely because it's illegal to kill them...