my side of the story... wanna hear it?: April 2008

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

medical name: itchingpainandcrazinessaftercamp-itis

common name: camps after effects

degree of contagiousness: limited to people who attended camp only

cause: extreme commando crawling on grassy surface, prolonged jumping like mad man/woman, over-clapping, over-shouting, laughing and cheering

immediate symptoms include: itching on arms, legs and sometimes near the 'delicate' areas; muscular pain usually around the thighs, arms, neck area and abdominal pains due to too much laughing; bruises around the elbows, knees and occasional bruises around the head due to bumping into walls while sitting and laughing near a wall; panda eyes due to lack of sleep; sexy voice due to sore throat and dehydration, extreme noise pollution due to hunger (usually the stomach area), loss of blood due to bloodsuckers a.k.a mosquitoes/leeches, overloaded laundry bag

long term effects (usually 1-2 days after camp): extreme drowsiness in class, the cross-arms-with-head-on-arms-on-table position may cause further pain near the neck area,
continuous craziness (i.e: group cheering when irrelevant), over-sleeping, unfinished homework, extreme mumbling of nonsense

recommended prescription: half a days sleep, use brush to wash body with antiseptic liquid (recommended brush: firm bristle toothbrush for 'delicate' areas and clothes scrubbing brush for all other areas of the body), drink lots of water, continuous craziness with friends with same symptoms to reduce continuous craziness alone, calling other friends who do not show same symptoms to share camp experience

other notes: symptoms are NOT contagious but continuous craziness maybe spread among those with same symptoms, patients with stated symptoms may get emotional if memory of camp is reminisced

Thursday, April 17, 2008

ah shyts... i'm feeling anxious... no, no... it's not the happy-type anxious... it's the i-have-a-bad-feeling-about-this-type of anxious... it's similar to the feeling you get before you sit for a major exam and you are not prepared... it's like butterflies in the stomach... just that the butterflies have spikes on their wings... gah~ this is so suck... wondering why i'm feeling anxious...? it's just hours before i take off to the dreaded camp... literally, i'm dragging myself there... this is one camp i'm NOT looking forward to... *sigh* i wish i didn't have to go... really... i have to sacrifice so much... 3 tuition classes, physical chemistry test on tuesday, piling homework, studies for my mid-term... 3 days... 3 days i have to stay in camp... wait... not camp... it's hell surrounded by trees... so much can be done in 3 days... but no, i HAVE to go... and the best part is, we were ADVISED NOT to bring our phone, mp3 players, etc. wtfh...?! excuse me, i'm going for camp, NOT I.S.A DETENTION CAMP... for goodness sake you mofos, we are just prefects, NOT TERRORISTS... a little music and communication is not going to ruin the country LAH... thank you very much for further spoiling the experience... it's evident how much i'm not looking forward to this camp... today, my mom asked me whether i am bringing any snacks along to camp... i said no as it did not cross my mind... then it struck me... *pap!!* usually, i bring snacks whenever i go for camps/events/forums... but THIS TIME... i don't even bother to even think bout it... my mom understood perfectly why i'm reacting this way... she knows i dread going for this camp... *haih* i haven't even started packing my bag yet... and i still have to do my physics report as it must be handed in tomorrow... bag packing... wait... you know what... SCREW bag packing... it's just 3 f**king days... what the f**k am i worrying my arse off over this...? if those people have a problem with me, they will just have to live with it... feel like telling them, "if i throw you a stick, will you leave me alone...?" *exhales* well, i'm feeling calmer now... having said all that, i really need to start working on my report... god damn capacitors... !!>.<

Monday, April 14, 2008

it's already the 3rd week of april... things are getting a little more intense... i just had my monthly test last week... not all the results are out yet, but i have not been performing well... ok, i admit, i'm not really pushing myself... i'm still slacking, hanging around, etc... it's difficult i have to say since i'm not the study-type of person who can sit for hours staring at books... the first week of may is my mid-term examinations... sigh... i honestly cannot wait for my examinations to end... i'm looking for a way to break away...

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
(Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway)

moving on, school's normal... just that, i'm beginning to feel that people disrespect me and my department... in the prefectorial board i mean... last minute information, great expectations, and extreme bullshytting from other people... other people would include teachers, students, heck, even prefects themselves... so much to carry on my department's shoulders... every single day, me and my assistant (i have 2 assistants but i only depend on 1, the other being passive), have to work our fingers to the bone trying to please everyone... but it's never enough... somehow, just somehow, there will be something to be criticized, condemned and complained about... even if there is nothing wrong, someone will find something... my assistant deserves so much more, much, much more appreciation... under appreciated... taken for granted... never have i ever once heard anyone come up to me or my assistant and said, "job well done..." time and again, i have to tell my assistant she's done a good job even though there are some flaws... heck, i said it so many times i think she knows it without me having to repeat myself... i don't really want all this gratitude, but at least, acknowledge my assistant... for crying out loud, she's been working so hard and so well... but no... she and my department is left without anything... no acknowledgment, no encouragement, nothing... i feel like giving up everything i have right now... so much sacrifice, so 'much' returns...

I've given up
I'm sick of living
Is there nothing you can say
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the f*** is wrong with me
(Linkin Park's Given Up)

having said all that, it's ironic how life functions... just not too long ago, i got to know of a junior (form 3) prefect that wanted to quit being a prefect... i managed to advise her not to... she was grateful that i supported her when she was i doubt... but right now, i myself am thinking of giving up... it's so ironic... telling others to believe in their capability but i don't believe in my own... i'm not doubting my own judgment, decisions, and even my self-believe... this is so suck...

not forgetting, i'm off to prefects camp on friday... will only be back on sunday... i'm totally against going for the camp, but i decided to go so to save trouble for many people... although this camp to me is a waste of time and money, i will go to keep troubles to the minimum... to go for this camp, i have to sacrifice not one, not two but THREE tuition classes... 'yay' to the world... let me just say this; it is not camp, it's hell surrounded by trees

yours truly is cutting down on his online hours... no, seriously... i'm reducing my hours/time online... i really need to get my lazy arse studying... so, i won't really be online often... my blog would be dry for some time... i will try to find time to keep my blog alive and kicking... even so, i'm still contactable... i'm not dead or anything since i won't be online for some time... drop an sms, i will reply when i have the time...

Friday, April 11, 2008

okay... today i'm typing my post in red... it's not the regular white colour i always use... why you ask...? simply because... i'm super pissed off with what is going on with the higher authorities... as usual, no names will be mentioned... my policy is to protect the anonymity of the people mentioned here... but this time... i won't mention names because their names are not WORTH mentioning... these people DO NOT deserve to be mentioned in my blog...

having said that, why am i super pissed off... i absolutely hate it when basic human rights are denied... BASIC... B-A-S-I-C HUMAN RIGHTS... what rights am i talking about...? the freedom to choose... something all of us are allowed to do... but no... some people have to force us to do what they want us to do... which is a whole load of BULLCRAP... no wait... let me rephrase that... it's not bullcrap... it's F*CKING BULLCRAP... yea that's right... already, i have given my reason for not wanting join/participate/attend/contribute... but no... denying is one thing... telling indirectly that my reason is not accepted because you want me to follow your orders is the last straw... ironically, i don't hate the management... i hate the higher authorities... no doubt, the higher authorities are nice people in person... but persuading (read: forcing) us against or basic rights...? rights to choose...? it's just wrong...

am i angry for what they are doing...? no and yes... no, because they are doing it for me... but yes because of denying my choice... currently, i still have to make my final decision... what will it be, i do not know... will it be in my favor or not will rest on two days of thinking... proper thinking... just that something tells me i might regret my decision either way... anyhow, a decision has to be made... lets all hope for the best...

in all seriousness, i feel that it's about time something has to be done... i have worked to hard and too long for these people to get treated like this... and i'm not the only one feeling this way... signing up for this was one of my biggest mistakes... my initial picture of these people were good ones, but now it has changed to the direct opposite... letting go of what i have now is indeed running through my mind countless times... i really want to but i am afraid of the consequences of my actions... i'm not scared to take full responsibility but i'm afraid of what others might suffer due to my decision... this is indeed f*cked up... i'm not essentially worried for my own but for the people around me...

all in all, i have accomplished what i came to do... letting go of steam and telling how 'nice' these people are treating me... what i have to say to them is; practice safe sex, give yourself a hand...

p.s: these people happen to be alive solely because it's illegal to kill them...

Thursday, April 03, 2008

"... And i hereby stand to reaffirm today's motion that giving is better than receiving... DOUBLE EXCLAMATION MARK, NO STRINGS ATTACHED!! THANK YOU VERY, VERY MUCH...!!" truly well said i must say... wondering what in the name of *insert proper name* am i talking about...? that, my dear readers, is the ending line of the debate finals i watched today in school which was presented by the third speaker of the governing team... debate again i hear you say...? yup... this mock debate was in conjunction with the English Language Week... as this is a mock debate, i repeat, MOCK debate, some of the real debating rules are omitted... and yes, i was part of it... i didn't want to join the debate actually... but since my MUET teacher who is one of the teachers in charge HAND PICKED me and 2 of my friends to join, what can i say...? as it was a mock debate, some of the titles are hilarious.. my motion was 'Cows are better than goats'... "huh...?" was my first reaction... i kept telling myself, "how the hell are we supposed to debate on COWS AND GOATS...??!!" turns out, it's POSSIBLE... *gasp* i did some research online, and i found a lot of facts about cows and goats... oh yea... i forgot to mention, my team is the opposition... meaning we support the goats... *dodging weird looks* research show that goats are very useful... i won't go into the details... my team's initial opponent was actually a upper 6 team from the biology stream... but at the last minute, they pulled out because the lower forms wanted to join... well... all i can say is, "NOOBS~~!"

so my team's new opponent is a group consisting of 2 form 3 students and a form 4 student... to those of you laughing at the fact that my team which consists of 3 form 6 speakers facing 3 lower form speakers and how easy my team would crush them, you are very, VERY WRONG... my opponents were good... and then, the debate started... me being the second speaker means rebutting the governing team's first speaker point and presenting 2 other points to reaffirm my team's case... having absolutely no experience in debating, i was shaking during my presentation... well, to cut short, my team LOST... why...? the invigilator said that both the governing and opposing teams have their strengths and weaknesses but they are vastly different... as it was a mock debate, spontaneity was one of the factors that was considered in the evaluation... so my team lost based on that point... but knowing roughly how a real debate goes, spontaneity was not considered by my team... simply because we must state our source of information in a debate... not having told that in a mock debate that stating the source of information was NOT required, my team screwed up... but all in all, we did pretty good considering that we did not have any debating experience... my team actually didn't want to win anyway because next week is the monthly test... so we need time to study and not do debate research...

today i watched the debate semi-finals and finals... the semis was FANTASTIC... simply because both the teams consisted of school debaters... the governing team had 2 school team debaters while the opposition consisted of 1 school team debater and 1 ex-school team debater (she represented her school in debating before... yes, she's a form 6 student...)... the motion was tomato is a vegetable... *gasp!!* why i was wowed by the debate... watching the debaters pitting words as their best weapon, loads of insults, condemning and 'bombing' was used... the rebuts were killers... the insults were downright degrading... the use of words made me listen more attentively... for once in my life, i see people going public with insults and it's damn right legal..!! O.O to those interested to know what the insults were, you can P.M me PERSONALLY... i'm not revealing anything here... moving on to the finals... wasn't as exciting as the semis, but quite good i must say... the motion was 'Giving is better than receiving'... again, the skill of using words was put to use... i will not elaborate further as i see no point to do so... feeling a lil' suspense is it...? =) having said all that, i am now feeling very, very much intrigued and wanting to go for more debates; whether as a spectator or a debater... it is exciting, adrenaline-pumping and downright fun...! doing research may be a bit wee too stressing and crappy, but the end result is damn right worth every ounce of effort put in... having said that, i'm have already requested to have more in-class debates and my MUET teacher agreed... hehe... let the fun begin...!

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ah yes... i wanted to blog about this but i kinda forgot... so here it is... on the 1st of april a.k.a international i-prank-you-with-harmless-pranks-and-get-away-with-it day (i made that up... hehe...) a.k.a april fool's day, i set a personal record for pranking the most people in a single prank... =) quite an achievement i must say... i never before thought i will be able to do so but... i stand corrected... okay... here is how it goes... as some of you might know, i hold a very *insert proper word here* post in the prefectorial board... so, when i woke up, got myself prepared and was on the way to school, i noticed it was raining (durh... who can be blind to rain...?)... feeling very, extremely happy that there will be no morning assembly, my happiness was cut short when i reached school because it stopped raining...!! *ah... wtf...!!* so i went to see teacher to confirm whether morning assembly will still be carried out or not... thankfully, she said no... as i took the microphone and headed to the assembly point where all the prefects have their prefects morning assembly, i thought of the pranking plan... i was asked whether will there be assembly for the students before i went to see the teacher... so i told them there will be assembly... just as the prefect in charge made the announcement, i heard "ah... what...?", "no...~", and many faces frowning... i smiled to myself as this prank already is working... just as the prefects were about to be adjourned, i said, "wait... before you guys go... there will be NO assembly... april fools...!! compliments from the assembly department... hahaha...!!"

then came the responses, "what...?!!", "yang hong...!!", "what the..." i could see the relieve and slight what-the-hell-he-pranked-us signs on their faces... the best response was from my friend... she is very adorable... i heard from her that she was practically SINGING on the way to school so that if would continue to rain...!! *laughs and falls of chair* her response was like the loudest among all the prefects i was told... hahaha... oh well... this could well be my last major prank... till then... have a nice day... =)