Wednesday, March 26, 2008
oh boy... looks i'm back to typing emo stuff again... terrible... that's all i can say to describe what's been going on lately... even though many people don't know what's going on but it would be best that it remained that way... quite frankly, i'm very sick and tired of being the 'Nice Guy'... seriously... it seems that everywhere i go... i get stepped on, disrespected, dejected, offended (sometimes), contemplated and and i'm everything BUT contented... i hate it but i was born with this nature... i do wish i was not born with a kind heart sometimes... why...? simply because kind people are often taken advantage off... hence, i started using the phrase "Nice guys finish last." it's quite true actually... take some time to ponder over it... often we look past others ugly side and give-and-take so that problems do not arise... if everyone was to be selfish, then there wouldn't be a peaceful place for humans to live in... but sometimes we have to bring out our ugly side in order to survive... how can we just keep on letting others step on us repeatedly like a dirty rag doll...? how much longer should we let others take advantage of our kind nature...? of course, patience does play a part in this, but just how much can a normal human take...? patience does have its limits, right...?
in the midst of all this nonsense coming up, i have decided to throw away my good nature... simply because no one seems to appreciate it anymore... being appreciated does not mean gifts or expensive dinners, a simple 'thank you' is more than enough... even though i'm throwing away my good nature doesn't mean i'm being COMPLETELY ruthless and evil... i'll be nice to those who DESERVE it... those who don't, time for you people to look after yourselves... i'm not offering my help anymore... it's a waste on my time and energy plus it's making me all tensed up worrying my @$$ off (literally) knowing that you people don't even care in the first place... how 'touching'... condemn me for all you want, but this is the truth from my eyes... i have received enough nonsense from you people to last me another year, not only in school but at home as well... names need not be said because you should know yourselves well enough... i would only like to say, thanks for making me realize what a fool i am to be offering my kindness for your so-called 'gratitude'...
-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-in the midst of all this crap, there is, however, a silver lining to it... i was pleasantly surprised (and touched) when i received a card from my junior prefects (2 of them to be exact)... both whom were under my guidance... i must say, i was shocked when i was given the card... and no, it was not the colour (pink card...) that shocked me, but the thoughtfulness and sincerity that really shocked and touched my heart... hence, they should receive a proper thank you in this post... it doesn't matter if it came in a card, sms, email, or even verbally... what's really important here is the amount of thought they put in it... the sincerity and the kindness... all in just words in a card... to me, that's one of the BEST gifts i ever received... you 2 truly made my day... gratitude doesn't need to come in a form of a present or something materialistic, but it should come from the heart... -l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-l-to those of you who love dramas, you may have noticed that in my previous post i mentioned some confusion over feelings towards someone... now... *drama-like song playing* new twist... a new character has been introduced... well... how it goes from here, we will just have to wait and see... it is only just beginning...
