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Monday, March 17, 2008

it's been a very long time since i last updated... i apologize for not updating that often... it's been rough lately... all the nonsense and craps popping up like mushrooms after the rain... schooling life is fairly okay... i won't say it's fantastic... bearing the weight of my duties as a prefect is seriously taking a toll on me... especially when i'm caring this particular post in the board... why...? simply because it's problems, problems and more problems... this aren't your regular i-see-this-everyday sort of problem... these problems are caused by a more significant figure... so significant, it will be deemed rude to retaliate... i find it a little difficult and tricky to actually confront these people simply because i have to protect the integrity of not only myself, but those who work with me... i try not to play the blame game but this is getting a little bit out of hand... nonetheless, it will be settled one way or the other... besides that, i don't get information i think i should be getting... secrecy seems to be top priority among the people i work with... sure, it doesn't involve me or my department, but hell, i deserve to know SOMETHING...

moving on... SPM and STPM results are out... i actually want to congratulate those who achieved good results and those who didn't do well, all i can say is, don't give up... as some of you might know, i have an elder sibling who took STPM last year... her result was good... i would really like to be happy for her, but being the younger one is really something i'm not fond of... pressure is mounting up like a bucket under a leaking faucet... mom wants me to equal or better her result... for a average achieving student compared to a high achiever like her, i don't really think i can do it... don't even try the "sure can do it... give it all you got..." story... speaking is easy... try being in my shoes... it's a completely different ball game... whatever it may be, i am still working my @$$ off... no choice it seems... so much depends on this one examination... time is so running out... i'm not really a coffee drinker... but looks like it might change soon... might need to stock up on coffee... heck, i might just end up eating coffee powder just to stay awake...

besides all the above, things are okay... my other phone, the nokia one, is busted... again... ain't so bad this time... can still make calls... there is one major problem though... i can't access the menu...! looks like i have to go phone hunting again... >.<>

more updates on the way... i'll try to find time (and mood) to keep this blog with no readers alive... till then... have a good day...

*i'm confused about something regarding someone... i'm questioning myself and what i should do about it... it could well be an illusion of the heart...