story told on 12:09 am �

yang hong needs a REAL hug, REAL BAD... 'nuff said...

story told on 11:48 pm �

the other day, i was watching LOTR 3: Return of the King... a very inspiring movie i must say... look past the battle scenes, all the action, lies a lot of moral values... i find it a little surprising for me to be saying this as i am a action movie fanatic... to put it short, i couldn't care less bout the messages inside the movie... but yet, i felt touched, inspired and a whole load of other stuff... i think the most brave character in the movie has to be Sam... he, is what i define a real TRUE friend... he stuck with Frodo no matter what, even when he was no longer trusted by Frodo... it's very difficult to find friends like that anymore... take a look around you... i admit, i do have friends like that but they are hardly a handful... sometimes, when you start to believe in someone, you start to trust, you start to love them, they do something beyond your trusting limit... they don't necessarily betray you, but they somehow just makes you doubt your friendship... they make you doubt your effort to keep that particular friendship alive... i love all my friends, and so far none has actually done this to me... i'm truly grateful... there were sometimes dumbfounded by some of their actions, but i believe in them that they have their reasons to do it... and so far never has my believe been broken...

considering the circumstances, things don't naturally go our way sometimes... especially when we do something with sincerity... all i want to do sometimes is to honestly offer my assistance and help... and yet, i sometimes *note: SOMETIMES* still get the i-don't-trust-you-and-why-you're-helping-me look... of course it hurts being given that look, but i still respect that decision... i let it go no matter how much the situation requires assistance... how dire the situation may be... it's pointless to force someone to accept your assistance if he/she doesn't want you to help... hoping for the best is the most you can do...

speaking of hope... did you ever wonder what keeps us going day after day after day...? how we make it through the roughest days...? how we manage to overcome the most problematic problems...? how we find the strength to wake up in the morning knowing very well the day might not be as joyful as it should be...? hope... hope is what keeps us going... yes... we all hope for something regardless of what it is... we may not necessarily put it in our minds like "i hope today will...."... hope actually is that tiny glimmer of light in the darkest, never ending tunnel... why...? simply because it indicates that there is an exit... even though it seems very far away... we still strive for it, sometimes knowing very well we may not make it out alive, but yet, we still cling on to it...

but hoping alone will not bring us anything if no course of action is taken right...? i agree 100 percent... but in certain things, actions brings us nothing in return too... example (this may not necessarily be the most perfect example); take love... you may love someone with your entire heart, you entire soul... you are willing to die for him/her... but how much action you take will prove worthless if he/she does not love you in return... all those cliched love movies that portray that if you struggle to prove your love to him/her, he/she will fall in love with you too... but this is not necessarily true... at most, they will just feel touched by your actions and nothing more... they don't love you any more... but we still fight for it... why...? because of hope... we don't necessarily hope for them to love us in return, but simply, we just hope for them to be touched by love... i've heard this may times before, 'loving someone is letting them go'... it is indeed a very true quote... loving someone is hoping that they will remain happy, contented even if they are NOT with you, even if every time you see they laughing, cuddling, hugging and kissing someone which is not you, you literally die inside; you still manage to bring out a smile because your love one is happy, even if he/she is not with you... you shed tears of joy and pain... joy because he/she is happy and pain because you are not the one being loved... and yet, you still wake up every day, hoping that a miracle might save you...

hoping is tied very closely to love... regardless of whether you agree or not, this is my believe... even i hope for love... i have felt love before, and although things didn't go my way, i still hope for the best.. not just for myself but for her... sometimes we hope for love so, so much, it becomes an illusion... an illusion of the heart... we tell ourselves we are meant for him/her even though we know fairly well it's never going to happen... but the dreams *literally dreaming* of being with him/her is enough to put a smile on our faces, give us strength to get through the toughest days... it may not be real, but thats the power of hope and love...

my dad once said, "nothing in this world is certain..." but i know one thing is for sure... lets us all be given hope, and hope in return will give us joy, comfort and love even if it's just an illusion...

story told on 11:58 pm �

i can't think of a proper title... so i'm gonna leave leave it title-less...



click play and pause the video so to let the video load first while you read the blog post... might take some time to load... sorry...!


tomorrow is the day that every loving couple looks forward to... it's valentines day...! however, i don't celebrate solely because i don't have that someone special... *actually...* so then... why am i blogging about valentines since i don't celebrate it in the first place...? well, i just thought i would do something special and dedicate this blog post to everyone, single or hooked... secondly, i bet you guys are wondering why and what is that video for... i can't find any suitable song for the post, and i don't want those sappy love songs... a bit too clinched... trying something a little different... this is a song from nickelback... titled someday... i don't know whether you heard or seen this video before, but i find this video very touching and the lyrics is very meaningful... watch the video and pay attention to the lyrics...

okay... back to where i was... valentines day... i just wanted to say that to those how are in a relationship, treasure him/her and treat him/her the best you can... chances like this don't come often to many people... so treat your partner well... no one knows what might happen in the future... and, to those who are single... which includes me... try not to be depressed when u see all your friends getting all lovey-dovey... our time will come... =) *heck, i myself am trying to stay as positive as possible...*

just so you know, i have had experience before in love but things unfortunately didn't turn out well... but thinking back, i'm glad it didn't happen... *phew* so, happy valentines to those who are celebrating... hope you have a wonderful, romantic day... cheers... ;)

p.s: watch the video and i hope you enjoy it... it's very touching... one of the best *IMHO* songs connected to love...

story told on 11:59 pm �

cny is over, to me at least... even though it is supposed to be 15 days long, but what the heck... school starts = cny over; i'm quite sure a lot of people agree with me... but anyways, to sum up my cny... this years cny for me is very very much more quiet compared to the previous years... i went to my grandma's house on cny eve... i was kinda expecting a lot of people to visit my grandma on the 1st day of cny like every other year... but surprisingly, NO one visited my grandma...! i was kinda dumbfounded... i was expecting at least SOMEONE to come, but what to do... when i say no one, i mean far away relatives like in malacca, not those staying within a 20km radius from my grandma's house... now, the most important (or maybe not so important?) thing every single person below 20 years old and is not married is of course the red packets...! this year, however, is not such a good year for ang pau collecting... economy must be bad i think... i don think i collected a lot this year... but, what the heck... money is important, but not that important... next, food...! glorious, glorious food...!! ah... i LOVE cny snacks and biscuits... they are so good... yum~~ the interesting thing is, i discovered a few different types of cny snacks this year... something new that i have never seem before...

as u can see, the one on the left which is slightly more yellow in colour is actually *drum roll* seaweed...! fried seaweed...!! imagine that... i never thought i would eat something like this but damn, it's nice... the one on the right which is more reddish in colour is actually *jeng jeng jeng* spicy cornflakes with ikan bilis and peanuts...! spicy CORNFLAKES....! *gasp* but they taste awesome... i ate so much during cny... i nearly lost my voice... i whacked nearly a whole tin of kuih kapit... kuih kapit and egg rolls are my favourite cny snacks... on sunday, my aunts, uncles and cousins came down to klang to have dinner at a seafood restaurant... and guess what my aunt gave my mom... she gave her a gold tablet (i can't find the proper word)... well, at least it looks like one...

it's actually a hamper... hahaha... and i thought i saw every type of hamper ever made...! boy, was i wrong... so wrong... anyway... i have yet to see the contents as it is not opened yet... but all in all, this years cny is ok... won't say fantastic, but still it wasn't too bad... schools started already... time to go sleep... ;)

story told on 9:45 pm �

weeee~ it's chinese new year(cny) again... according to the lunar calendar, it's the year of the rat... so all you rat-ty people... time for you guys to celebrate...!! =) anyway... since the cny is coming soon, i'm quite sure most people are very excited... simply because during cny we get to meet relatives, friends, eat glorious, glorious food and not forgetting us students 'best freind' a.k.a side income... MONEY!! for those of you whose gamble... heh... even more (or less...?) side income... but even so... i don't seem particularly excited over this upcoming cny... i have totally no idea why... it just doesn't seem as exciting as the previous years... even last year when i was in NS camp... i made it back home though... i was going nuts over cny... but this year... all the excitement just seemed to have... disappeared... maybe it's the fact i have a major exam this year (stpm) or maybe it's the piling homework i have yet to complete (thanks to all the teachers who 'kindly' gave me all the 'fantastic' amount of homework... cheers... =X)... or maybe, just maybe i have outgrown the excitement... sounds unreal...? why not...? just thinking back... when i was younger... i used to enjoy running around my grandma's house compound... watching the fireworks that blew my young and very fragile mind (heck, my mind is still fragile now..!! xD) back then... the amount of money in the angpau's i receive is literally unimportant... but times have changed... as i progress older, whether i like it or not, money seems to play a heavier role in my life... part of learning to be independent is being able to manage my income well... managing my income well mean ALWAYS having a debited account not a credited one... (those of you who have absolutely, positively no idea what i just said... debited account = having a positive account balance/not owing money while credited account = opposite of debited account)

anyways... having mentioned all that, i do hope it changes to something better... hey, who wants to be all sulky and emo during cny...? it's supposed to be a JOYOUS occasion... heck... anyone who visits me (or if i visit them) is all sulky and emo during cny will receive a good punch from me... seriously... so... i'd like to wish a very, merry happy Chinese New Year to everyone (despite you reading my blog or not) and may you have loads of good luck, even more happiness and a fantastically huge side income... =)) tootles... oh... do take care of your safety... i don't want to be reading about you in the STAR newspapers headlines for the wrong reasons (i think you know what i mean)... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR OF THE RAT!!

*p.s: i won't be in klang for about approximately 5.0 days... i will be back on sunday... until then... i'm reachable on BOTH my hp's... cheers...!!