Monday, November 19, 2007
this is yang hong's other self writin... yang hong is currently away on depression leave... he knows tht his blog is not up to date but he will try his best to get back as soon as possible...he is takin leave becos of some unseen events n sad memories tht r suddenly surfacin n bringin back nostalgic but sad feelings... oh yea... there has been some changes in his plan to rebel against his fam... a sudden turn of events forced him to rethink his plan... about those sad memories... he is reluctant to comment anythin bout it cos he knows it is pointless to as very little ppl know bout it... therefore he is keepin mum on it... 1 more thing... yh says he is practisin on his fake smile... he hopes his frens will not worry bout him cos he wants u to know everythin will turn out fine even though he knows it will nvr be ok... also, he said tht all of his frensr free to call/sms/p-msg/im him anytime provided its a suitable time... smsin him 4 in da mornin is not a good idea... if he is in tuition he will inform u... n he also said he will GUARANTEE a reply but maybe not an instant 1... but he will reply within 1 hour - 1 day assumin he is not busy/has credit/phone is in good condition(got battery)... thts all he told me so far... if there is anythin else i will post it up... cheerios...
Saturday, November 10, 2007
ok... title says it all rite...? presentin my fav sweet... my aunt got it from jpn... she let me try this sweet around last year i think... cant rmmbr... anyway... need i say more...? let da pic do da talkin...
da outside packin... best part is...
i got not 1, but 2 packets...! yay~!
this is da packin for da sweet...
this is da sweet... mmm~ i luv it...Wednesday, November 07, 2007
last nite i couldnt sleep... i hav no idea y... oh well... so i spent my time lyin on my bed half-starin at da ceiling and my eyes half-closed... while i was doin tht, i let my mind wonder... it began explorin da many 'wonders' life had to offer... question were plenty n it began askin some of them... hav u ever felt tht ur life is sucky...? tht other ppl r alwis betta off compared to u...? hav u ever looked at a fren n see him/her usin da lastest phone but ur is an ancient 1...? or hav u ever seen a lovin couple on da street n wondered y u still remained single...? or y some ppl lead sure happy lives n while urs is literally a piece of trash...? if u hav answered yes to all my questions earlier, step into my sampan as we both r experiencin 'wonders' life hav to offer... its crap... reli... but some ppl say tht life is in our own hands n how plays out is dependent on us... do i agree...? no... n yes... no, becos many factor/s affect our lives whether we like it or not... its somethin called DESTINY... (i somehow do believe in destiny... hard to explain...) yes, becos we must determine our actions 1st... although our actions may not necessarily be da best... but we determine our actions based on da situation rite...? so wat would u do if this situation involves da ones u love most...? n ur course of action is 1 u reli, reli, don wan to take becos it would hurt not onli u but ur love ones too...? thts wat is goin on rite now in my family... me vs my dad,mom n sis... >.<>
1) let things be... n continued to be stepped over, or
2) simply fight back
guess wat...? i chose choice 2... my sick-o-meter is reachin max... but jus becos im fightin back doesnt mean i hav to be rude to them... they r after all still my family... but i will not be so nice as i used to be last time... things hav to be done differently... this time... my way... criticize me all u wan... i don care... its bout time i did somethin... all this talk bout bein fair to others is PURE rubbish... pic this... my sis is STILL usin my dad's old num... n its a LINE... my dad is still PAYIN for it... but i hav to PAY for MY OWN bills... oh yea... i hav my P license... but im not drivin... y...? becos my sis is NOT ALLOWED to drive... since she is not allowed to drive... im NOT ALLOWED too... fair...? 'very' it seems...
i woke up this mornin feelin very tired... i got more than enuf sleep... yet i wake up feelin tired... im not physically tired... im not mentally tired... im EMOTIONALLY tired... i can sleep for hours but still feel tired... my mom wonders y i can sleep for hours... =.= i seriously hav no place to go now... i jus hav to carry on as long as i can... oh well... *yawn* im feelin tired... i'll stop here... time to go relieve some stress...
Sunday, November 04, 2007
im annoyed... seriously... i cant seem to get messages across... either my message is not clear (i highly doubt so) or u ppl r seriously blind/dumb/ignorant... im not a person who likes to be blunt... but i will if i hav no other bloody choice... i prefer to take things a lil slow, soft paced, etc... but u ppl jus take advantage... step on me like im a rag doll rite... i hav alwis been nice... but u ppl NVR listen... talk bout bein fair... fair my mo'f**kin @$$...!! my patiences limit is crackin... u like to pressure me so much rite... ok then... u think u very big rite... i show u wat is big... well... i hav had enuf... no more mr. nice guy... if its war u wan... than war i shall give... no mercy... IF IM GOIN TO HELL, IM TAKIN U ALONG WIT ME...
