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Thursday, August 23, 2007

its weird how life is... things sometimes jus nvr seem to go our way no matter how hard we try to make it go our way... its depressin sometimes... knowin u hav to do things u nvr wan to do... be someone u reli don wan to be... though its nvr easy to do it but sometimes u jus hav to... i, for one, am becomin some what like a recluse... talkin to me seems to serve me very little purpose... its not tht i don like to talk but of da late, things n situations push me to make this move... when i try to give my opinion or ideas in a polite n nice way... ppl jus wont listen... but the saddest thing is sometimes ppl start to regret for not listenin... wat can i do?

even at home... i now hardly speak to my family members... talkin to them jus seem to end up in an argument or somethin like tht... i try to be patient but im losin it real fast... my mom thinks im good-for-nothing, my sis respects me as how she would respect a roadside dog n my dad, i don think i wan to mention bout it... rite now im usin a very different way... since i cant use a nice way to convey my msg... i hav no choice but to let my actions do the talkin... its definately somethin i don like doin... i talk onli when necessary...

unfortunately... i hardly talk to some, if not many of my frens... wat u all don know is... in da past i used to talk n keep contact wit most of my frens... but as time passes by... i began to realise tht im the one wastin all my effort doin tht... the 1 msging, smsing, instant msging is me... the rest r not bothered to even say a simple hi or hello... why should i be the 1 doin all this when other r not even bothered? is this the type of frens i need? wat i am doin now is lettin them make their decisions on wat they wan in a frenship... i've done my best... its about time they made their decision... i shall no longer interfere... im sick of it...

maybe some might think im a bastard to say this kinda things... but honestly... i don give a f*** on wat u think... i doesnt matter to me... its not goin to make me any more different than wat i am... i am who i am n ntg can change it... if u don like me thts ur prob... but be4 any of u make a criticism about me... y don u go look into the mirror 1st...